I am so happy. I am making REAL PROGRESS on Suffer the Children, my huge MK. I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Whee! I don't put estimates on finishing anymore, because... er, yeah. Not a good practice. But I have a SELF-estimate/deadline, which is really satisfying.

:)

Yep. Still around. Still writing. Two stories. Well, more than that, really. But two I'm actively working on. One is huge... stand alone M/K. The other, the next R&S story... who knows what it will end up being.

Just realized, I never did post that last story to the basement. Ought to do that.

Sorry for the delay. It's still Wednesday from Central Time Zone on west...

( LOST & FOUND, post #8, FINAL POST )

First post of the new story. This story is about 125 pages total. I'm going to post in chunks on a daily basis.

( LOST & FOUND, part of the Resist & Serve Universe )

I actually finished something! [falls over in shock]

It turned out to be a little more "later" than "sooner", but it's DONE.

I'll start posting it here tonight. I plan to post in chunks here in LJ-land. I've been out of commission so long, I'm not sure where the email lists stand these days.

Ignored work, got an immense amount of writing done, and may actually have a STORY to post in a sooner-rather-than-later time frame.

Nothing else, really. Just changed a few journal things.

Contracts continue to stack up, but I'm having a sudden urge to ignore work.

So... yeah. So much for occasionally updating. Seven months.

The will is there, but the schedule is crushing. My interest and desire to do more with my unfinished stories and ideas are both still very present. Unfortunately, professional commitments just keep ramping up up up. Which I don't mean to complain about... it's a good thing, really.

Just frustrating.

And how odd that my last post was specific to Heath-grief, and Dark Knight just opened. Haven't seen it yet, but do expect to.

Hi everyone. :)

Still grappling with Heath-grief. Thanks to those of you who commented about this and shared your thoughts. It really helped to hear other fans talk about how fan-grief is a confusing thing to process. I think in general I'm doing better, but mostly through not thinking too hard about it. When my mind goes there, it sits and dwells.

It catches me up at odd times.

Procrastinated on three contracts over the weekend, and instead opened up the big M/K twice.




I need different icons. I've said this before, and not ever bothered/had time to upload some. I should do something about that, eventually.

Sigh. I'm so depressed.

I think this is the first time someone I've written about has died. (Given that I write about so very few people, this is probably to be expected.) And the Heath of my story was as much a fictional character as any Krycek I've ever written. But still. It's... weird. And it feels weird.

And I'm very sad and feeling somewhat numb and unable to process it. Which is not an uncommon reaction for me, for a celebrity death. These people... they're so important to me on so many levels that are so difficult to explain to people who aren't "fans" or in "fandom" (ie most everyone else in my everyday life)... and yet they're also these people who I don't even know. I tend to steer clear of learning too much about the real lives of people/actors I write about (and hell, even those I don't write about, but just adore), so as a rule I know even less than the average fan of any given individual about his/her "real" existence. It's a big, one-step removal that makes dealing with it... confusing, in a way other grief isn't.

Anyway, I'm sad.

Life continues apace. I'm committing to being a little better about updating here. Hopefully I'll actually have something interesting to update with, sometime.

Finding a bit of writing time. Of the two huge stories going (one in Resist&Serve, the other a stand alone M/K), I'm bouncing back and forth between the two. Makes for a nice change of pace, if a bit schizoid.

At least my Alex is usually pretty much... my Alex, no matter where I'm writing him.

My interest is high in finishing something. Something, something, anything. Plenty of contracts keeping me plenty busy though, so it's hard. I'd love some *concentrated* writing time.

Just went in and added a number of people as Friends, who had friended me. Hello, all you people.

Have picked up a Supernatural habit. No particular interest in writing in the fandom, but am very much enjoying the show. And Dean. Who looks exactly like Alex in the right kind of shadowed shot.

Nothing sucks more than being right in the middle of two REALLY long stories and not having time to get to the computer.

For some reason, the holiday season ALWAYS makes me want to write Krycek.

I DON'T HAVE TIME. I never have time. [flings self down and pouts]

I got this Krycek-cliche quiz from seagray. It's hysterical. I like my response. Giggle.

( CLICHE! )

RL has eaten me. Or steamrolled me. Can't quite figure which yet.

I have so many stories half done. It's sad. By the time I finish them, NO ONE will be reading XF anymore.

Sigh.




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I'd actually intended to get in here for a mid-October turn-of-the-half-month, but that didn't work out so well. The minute I (mentally) declared my intentions, I was struck down with Multiple Impediments.

So. I do, in fact, still exist. As expected, August was a total wash; slightly less expected was the fact that September was a fic-wash as well, due to professional commitments. Completely *un*expected was October's level of peak/valley-ness, due to both professional and personal matters.

Have had some definite success getting some writing done in October, just not as much as I'd like.

Feeling very off my tracks, and trying to regroup. Have about a zillion and one stories in process, and many more in my head fighting to get out. This isn't actually a *bad* place to be, it's just sometimes a frustrating place to be. Sigh. I want to work on all of it simultaneously. I feel a bit... fractured.